Sunday, March 29, 2009

Let me out, I need air

Sorry I haven't written. I don't have it in me. Perhaps, it's because I'm so overwhelmed I feel that I can't breathe. I just want to cry. I know I'm approaching my "busy" time. Between Confirmations, Holy Week liturgies at church(es), Easter Masses, First Communions (including my own daughter's) and my Mother's and sisters' attitudes...I.am.done.

Yet, there are so many other people going through worse things in their lives, I can't help but think "who the hell are you to feel this way?" People are losing their jobs, having health issues and going through some tough times and here I am...sad and overwhelmed. I have no right to feel this way. But, I do. One of my immediate stresses is childcare. It always is. I have asked everyone I know and for whatever reason Wednesday, April 1st is a very busy day. Fortunately, for me, my husband has been great. He is actually going to make more stress for himself by taking time off this week to "parent" the children while I go off to work. He's been so busy at his office that this is only going to backfire on Thursday and Friday. But, he's doing it anyway. For me and the children. I'm trying to take things one at a time but it's not easy. I keep thinking about the bigger picture and all the obligations--it's too much. I.need.air.

10 comments:

Natalie said...

Oh dear! I hope it works out Joyce-Anne.
Thinking of you, stress is awful enough, without having to worry about your babies too.
Love, Natalie.xx♥

ligirl said...

Hang in there, Joyce! I am thinking good thoughts for you! I only met Mr. Hard-Worker once, I think, but he sounds like a great guy!

LceeL said...

Oh, sweet girl. Slow down. Take a deep breath and let it out slow.

You see all that stuff coming? Don't worry about it. Just take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Tomorrow will take care of itself. It's going to get here - so don't fret about it. Just take care of today. And when tomorrow gets here, do the same. Just pick 'em off one at a time. You will get through this. So will your kids and your husband and all of the obligations. There is only one of you. And you can only live one day at a time.

songbird's crazy world said...

your stress is understandable. hag in there.

Bama Cheryl said...

Make lists if that helps you stay uncrazy and otherwise, don't look beyond what needs to be done to get you through the next few hours. Big hugs! It will all go just fine. Make sure you take even five minutes for you in all this. Your sanity is too precious to lose.

Joyce-Anne said...

Natalie- Thank you.
Donna- You met Mr. H-W at Sue and Ed's wedding.
Lou- I took a deep breath--it can be difficult to see the forest through the trees sometimes.
SB- Thank you.
Cheryl- Thanks for stopping by. Even when I'm calm, I manage to lose my lists...

Momisodes said...

I'm so sorry. I know this feeling. I hope things slow down and that you feel a weight lifted from your shoulders soon.

*Hugs*

Joyce-Anne said...

Sandy- I know you know how I feel. Are you sure you don't want to move to NY? We could help each other out. :)

Grandy said...

Oh honey. I'm sorry I haven't been by to check in on you. Please don't ever negate your feelings as unimportant. They are no less valid than anyone else's feelings of stress and being overwhelmed. You have your hands FULL!!!!

I will read the next post and see where you are with this, but when I read, "Thanks for all your support in my last post" I stopped to read the last post.

Hang in there!!!

Joyce-Anne said...

Mary- You are such a sweetheart. Thanks for your kind words and wisdom.